So here I am....A speculum of an antithesis..I would like to describe what this means to me. When I first started this class I felt as if I was transcending above myself. Not in an arrogant type of way just different. I then realized this person I was looking at was myself all along. I just needed the looking glass the speculum to see who I really was. The really intresting part of this is an antithesis is the exact opposite. Here I am the same person but only a reflection of who I was.
That is where I will end my journey with the class as a class and I hope we continue to grow as sisters in our spiritual worlds. I know we are all busy but this is what we can do for ourselves whenever we would like...no strings attached.
As far as my goals I did not succeed in starting an exercise program but I have grown so much more psychologically, exercise will be a little step compared to the other mountains I climbed.

Going to the doctor recently, for that, ever so famous yearly checkup, you are stripped down to nothing and left in a gown that barely covers your right breast. The room is so freezing cold that any warmth you may have had, has slipped out the back. The doctor knocks on the door and enters the room; he looks over the chart, and finally acknowledges my presence. He tries to divert attention from the tasks and he asked, “What’s been going on?”
Feeling very self-conscious because of weight that seemed to have jumped on areas sprawled out on that little table, I tried to explain with as much dignity as I could that I had been devoting much of my time in completing my degree in health science. He asked what major I was working on and I told him, health wellness. He looked stunned and said, “Is there really a field for that?” Now, at this point, I am feeling very uncomfortable, with the nurse and him both staring at my anatomy up in stirrups like a cow going to slaughter.
Now as if I had not already felt uncomfortable, here is the doctor, I have had so much faith in, asking me one of the stupidest questions I had ever heard. “Is there really a field for that?” this seems to be playing in my mind repeatedly as I am lying there and he is finishing his work. I was so stunned. I had to ask him one more time before I left the office if I heard him right, and he confirmed I had. This very intelligent doctor brings many lives into the world daily and makes life and death decisions in some cases and I again I was stunned speechless.
Driving home afterwards, I became deeply disturbed knowing the doctor who has treated me for the last 10 years with my most personal attributes has thought nothing more of me then symptoms. He has not really been looking at me as a holistic person but as another woman who has the same body parts as the next one.
At that point, I decided, I would never treat any two people the same while in the integral medicine field. We are all holistic people with individual needs. I know now why it is important for people to grow spiritually, psychologically and physically both professionally and personally. People become stale and stagnant in what they do everyday. It is important we serve with what we do and by doing so we are surely to grow. As I continue to grow, I will always remember this story and realize how stagnant people become.
Health domain on a scale of 1-10, the scale would reflect one being the best and ten being the worst. I would rate my health a five. My Spiritual domain is a 6. My Psychological domain is a 7. In my health domain, I have a goal of exercising daily. In my Spiritual domain, my goal is to become an active member in a church. My Psychological domain my goal is to work on my self-esteem issues.
To obtain my health goal I plan to join a gym or a fitness club within the next two weeks. I will also start walking the afternoons next week. In my Spiritual domain, I plan on going to different churches to find a spiritual home and I plan to meditate daily. Psychological domain, I plan to use meditation to work on my self-esteem issues and joining a weight loss club.
I will keep track of my weight loss by the pounds that I lose. I will keep track of my spirituality by the churches I visit. I will measure my progress by keeping a journal. I will also ask my husband to help me stay on track and I plan to continue my blog with my classmates.

References
Dacher, E. (2006). Integral health the path to human flourishing. Laguna Beach, CA: Basic Health Publications.

Meeting Asciepius
I enjoyed this exercise a lot. I felt closer to myself then I felt since beginning this class. Becoming this wise person was really easy for me because she raised me in spoon fed me a lot of her wisdom. I can foster these exercises to become more self assured and know that I am wise.

Well, to me “One cannot lead another where on has not gone himself” (pg 477) this means if I have not practiced meditation or practiced other exercises then I cannot ask my clients to do it.

Everyone who works in the health care field owes their clients the best possible holistic care we can provide. We as integral health providers must dedicate as much as our clients dedicate if not more. I can foster these exercises to become more self assured and know that I am wise.

Universal Loving Kindness

This exercise was one of the best yet. I enjoyed being able to bring people into my technique. In some odd way, I hoped they could also feel the energy as I brought them into my realm. The exercise was a little long and seemed to be non-ending, but eventually, I was through the exercise and felt like I had extended so much compassion and generosity.

Integral Assessment

Although I have been completing the exercises as we have been progressing in the class, I still feel that I have not resolved anything in my four quadrants. My problems begin with the biological then progress. I have chose to focus on my biological. I believe once the biological aspect is in alignment all of the quadrants will fall back into the quadrants.

I was able to better concentrate on this weeks exercises. I seemed to be more relaxed or more into the exercise. This exercise came easier then the previous exercises. I enjoyed bringing my mind back to the breathing exercises when it wondered. I enjoyed the discipline I had over myself.
I don't believe their is a connection with the mental, physical and spiritual wellness. I think they are all one and are stacked neatly inside each other. This is manifested by allowing more time for me, with exercising both mentally and physically.